Hello~ All~.... okay.. i know its been sooooooo sooooo long i never post at my blog... hehehe... cant help it.. i've been busy with sch stuff n Auditionsea...
N Yesh... i still play tat game... tot of quitin'... but.. i cant help it.. hahahha..
so.. new semester... new timetable... n it really suckss.... i tell ya... its bcoz...
i started early n finished late... =.=" .... so tiring... but somehow... sch kinda fun to me... can meet arnd wif frens....n so on... hehehe...
Tommorow is Monday... i dnt know whether gt sch or nt?? hahahah... guess need to check wif some of my frens... or maybe my Class Advisor.. LOLS..& guess wat...
by Next Month Im turnin' 21.... Oh My Allah!!!!!!... hehehe GST MONEH $_$.. kekekeke.. so guys.. better be good to me.. or else.. dun wan treat u.. =P
here are some of the things tat i really wan by this YEAR ;->New Handphone
New Shoes
More & more make up things
Good grades
Boyfriend (although its nt necessary but still want =P)
Hair Treatment + perm
So... think i can achieve it all by this year???... ermmm... maybe.. INSYA ALLAH.. :)
oh well... so many things... yet soo lil' money i had now... goshhh.. i need to save up ley... soooo....... yeah... I NEED TO SAVE MONEY OKAY!! *bear tat in MIND SRI!!*
Labels: happy, money, randomness
Ok...Now Im Having Holidays...woohoooo....
but then hor.. i dnt hav any plan.... :( *sigh*....
well... recently.... i went to J-Cube.. quite nice la.. meeting friends in Auditionsea.. :))
well.. it was my 1st time.. tho..hehe well... some seems nice.. while some... like racist... like tat..
nahhh.. who cares... :) .....
Oh yeahh... recently... i like this Chinese boy... but then.. when to think of it.. its like... IMPOSSIBLE LURH...we gonna be together... hahaha i dnt wan make things so complicated...
but..but.. i do really like him... for now.. only as a friend... :))))))))))).. *sigh*
How i wished... tat *he* is a malay ... i mean.. not tat im racist or wat lahh.. its juz tat... it would be easier for me.. :P hehehee... i've met him... when my first time goin to J-cube.. ;D ...he seems so nice.. n kewwwwttt....hohoho so adorable lil' creature.. teehee.. ok-..ok... STOP IT SRI.... grow up pleasee... @__@...
so then... i dnt know wats goin to happen next??...i mean.. i cant get my eyes off himm... *awhhhh.....watever..!*haizzz... lets juz remain friends la... as always...
May u happy wif ur own life...boy <333>
till here.. bye readers.....
I HATEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE BEING IN THIS SITUATION!!!!!
FEELS LIKE RUNNING AWAY FROM HOME!!!!!
I HATE THEY WAY U TREATED ME!!!!!
WHY CANT U BELIEVE IN ME????
WHY U ACCUSED ME OF SOMETHING I DIDNT DOOO????
why suddenly i post it like this??? its because.. im angry at my parent for making my life miserable.....!!! look!! i dont know why u guys are acting these way?>?>?..as for me.. i know my limitation... i ALWAYS REMEMBER.... its not that i am a REBELIOUS person... I can do that.... if u guys really want to see...!!! i dont do that is because.. I RESPECT U GUYS AS MY PARENT!!!!..so why cant u respect me????????? im becoming 21 yrs old tis june.. n yet.. u still treat me like im 12 yrs old.... goshhhhh... i cant take it sia...n here i am crying out loud in my room... as no one can see me.....or hear me.... im juz disappointed in u dad.... i really cant believe what u hav said to me...u always thot that im juz using their names when everytime i wana go out with... if u dont believe me... THEN U SHUD CALL THEM!!!! this is the second times u said like this....n what i do??? i dont reply back as i dont wanna get u upset or be rude to u..... u rather believe outsider than believe in ur own daughter... im really disappointed in u dad.... n to mum.... u both are the same... u shud know my feelings better than dad... cause u r the one who gave birth to me... but it seems that u dont really know what is happening in me... what am i enduring... feels like no one care about me...its hard being a daughter...if u guys still treated me like this... haiz....
p/s: i wanna go far away from here....please...*sigh*...
Okay guys... i got some story to tell u all... this is about a new friend whom i known recently...
at 1st it was okay.. but then turn like.. like some kinda of a**hole...
And just now.. i was aslept.. & suddenly my phone is ringing for quite many times... at 1st.. i ignore it... but then it keeps on irritate me when i am trying to sleep... so i checked it out.. n it was the guy that i know him recently.. assuming that guy name is (Nizam)... so here was the story started...he called me many times but i didnt pick up as i was totally piss wif his attitude/behavior that cannt think as an adult..so he start sending me msg... here are the msg...
Nizam : " Anna u mara nan i ke? coz i ade ttm g2?..*TTM aka Teman Tapi Mesra*"
Me : " Nak marah buat pe? U nk ade ttm ke, mtt ke pduli ape i? U can go ahead wif ur life, i dnt wanna disturb u. "
Nizam : " Asl? ckp btl2 r u happy wif me wen i takde ttm? asl mara2? pe ur parent ajar buang kwn yg tk sala pe? ape sei sala me.. "
Me : " Yg u nk babitkan my parent nie apehal? I mmg tk suke kwn2 i yg ada ttm nie semua,coz to me, it is juz buang mase as in making good frens.... "
Nizam : " Y? mesti ada sbb. "
Me : " Y??Sbb i tk suke org mempergunakn i...Bile u dah bosan ngan ttm u... u dtg kat i..,bile u dah bosan ngan i...u pgi kat ttm u alek, u ingat i nie ape? pmpn simpanan u?? "
Nizam : " Haix.up 2 u lau u da pk gtu.tkpela.buang me thn..i tak dosa ape2 pn, sory ganggu u,haix disappointed da besar tp pikiran tk mcm wat i xpect. "
Me : " Ehk helo...? Sape yg berpikiran mcm bdak2 i ke u?? Sape yg ade ttm skrg? to me.. ttm nie semua pkara bdak2 kecik la u... maseh nk enjoy2 berfoya2 tanpa tujuan yg btol... u nk ckp pasal dosa dgn i??...Well...4 ur infor..Having ttm is already a sin..Is better i jauhkn diri i dari bende2 nie semua...Nanti pada akhirnye..ia akan membinasakn minda & jiwa i skali.... "
Nizam : " K. thnks 4 ur nashat.tc.sory gangu. "
Me : " Ur welcome, u can always be fren wif me when u r "clean" if u want la... but if u dont, then okay lor.. i understand.. ty!!
Nizam : " Pape ah. i want us hapy as friends.mcm u ckp. bye "
*& then..i didnt reply his msg back.. as i was bloggin' hahhaha*
so now people... i cant really tolarate ppl wif TTM.. especially guys!!...i mean... this crap is juz a waste of time.. having a good friends is way better than ttm... i mean... all those feeling that usually ttm says arent sincere & real.. it is juz for the sake of it... so wats the meaning of it??..please guys.. think again b4 u make someone ur ttm.. is he going to treat u right?? or juz wanna 'make' fun of u... till here guys...
p/s: Now i cant sleep.. ZzzzZzz..thanks to him la.. pagi2 bute buat otak aku "berjalan" ....
take care readers!! :)
hmm.... okay.. 1st of all...i wanna describe my feelings here...right this moment i felt kinda lost....
i felt something is missing... which i dont know what it is?... and it really make my days sucks! seriously...im lack of something....ohh goshh..what is happening to me?? am i changed??? or the people around me is changing??? i am sooo clueless... i can sense that someone is gossip about me..... well guys.. get to know me better before judging me... im only a human who tend to make mistake..
well... currently.. i am missing my old school friends... although we barely talk to each other... but they seems pretty okay....this sch holiday really make my life miserable.... really... i dont lie...the most sad part of it is that... i didnt hav a chance to meet up my old friends... sometimes... i question myself.. where are they(friends) when i needed them badly....??? now i realise that... dont put high hopes in Friendship... cause they may not be the one who appreciate u in return...
maybe i'll stop here... till here...
p/s: I may not be a perfect person... but i'll do my best in achieving whatever i want!!!
